Ambivalence

I am in ambivalence.

I feel vacuous ness if I don't perform,
But my hollowness, when I attempt performing.

I am in ambivalence.

I start thinking when I should sleep,
And start sleeping, When I should cerebrate.

I am in ambivalence.

I miss her when she is away,
And think of self-sufficiency, when she is there.

I am in ambivalence.